Poem titled Vain by Paradise’s Storm
Vain
The word I dare not to partake in
The word that reminds me why I pick up my pen
And write poetry
Why I let you deep inside my mind where most people hide things
Vain and pain rhymes
I wonder if those that are vain feels the same
I wonder if they ever think to themselves… “aaahhhh what a shame”
Living on the surface level way too long
No depth, no true intimacy..
Do you even bleed?
Do you even want the thing called truth
Or the thing called life
Or are you satisfied with looking nice
Is that all you care about
Is there any depth to you at all
Are you deep like an ocean
Or shallow like a pool
Am I wrong for assuming since you never show us what’s inside
Or are you just the quiet type and like to keep things Abridged
But quiet you must not be because your outer appearance speaks so proudly
words of substance never utter from your lips
Are you an attention whore
Am I just hating on this
No I’m not I tell you
I know I’m beautiful on the outside
I’ve even been a “narcissist”
or so they suggested once upon a time
So my camera roll changed from selfies to words
Words of strife
Words of demise
Words of pain I hid deep inside
Words that turned into joy
and words of healing
Words that calmed down the noise
In my mind
Words that helped me back to my true self
Before society reigned in my life
Before i was a victim of peer pressure, bullying, and provocation
Because while I posed in front of the camera
My wounds grew deeper
But I just ignored them
My pain grew thicker
So tough you couldn’t cut through it with knife
Or a machete
The stubborn girl
Who locked her human neediness inside
Who laid awake at night
Thinking herself into abyss
Until her words started to bleed out
On everything around her
On herself
In the street
Over all the things she cared for
Until she was left with nothing
but herself
Nothing but those cold beige pages with black lines
Where she realized her pessimistic thinking
Her habit of pointing the finger
And never looking at herself
This poem started out about someone else
But it ended up with me because anything
That upsets me
Was made for me
To heal me
To heal my wounds that I never even thought was true
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